I Want You to Be Happier…

Lately, I’ve been…I’ve been thinking I want you to be happier. I want you to be happier. 

Marshmello ft. Bastille

This song has been playing on repeat lately. And it’s because I want myself to be happier. Finding happiness isn’t always easy. And sometimes you don’t even realize how happy you were until it’s gone. 

Lately, I’ve found happiness evading me in certain aspects of my life and I’m working to get it back. It’s been incredibly hard. Some days are harder than others, but I have to remind myself that one day, I’ll find it. 

One day, happiness and I will be friends again. We’ve just drifted apart for a while. But we’ll find our way back to each other. 

*Disclaimer: This music video is incredibly sad.

Deep Breath

It’s been a trying few weeksYouth
Few months is more like it
I’ve come to the conclusion
That sometimes
We have to do the things
We don’t want to
That’s just the way it is
And it’s harder than it seems
I’d like to say
It would be easy
Not to do things
And sometimes it is
Sometimes it is
But right now
It’s not
It’s hard
And the days feel long
And the weeks are taxing
But the day eventually ends
And a new one starts
And one of these days
Will be the start
Of everything

Patience listens up

When I’ve run out of words to say, sometimes all it takes is a little help from your friends. Please enjoy this collaboration with a fellow writer and a dear friend.

And please do yourself a favor by checking out his blog.

All this thunder

Hi All,

A fun change this month – a new look! Collaborator/longtime friend/cousin Katie Hands graciously shared her work for this post in addition to tips on site design. Katie is a wonderful writer, and hosts her own blog, here. Please take a look.

This month we focused in on the theme of Patience – one that both of us have been wrestling through lately. It’s a trying time. As we know. The search for patience can sometimes feel like a lost cause. However, time takes its time. Brighter days. The revolution must be joyous.


Days gone by
by Katie Hands

There are many things
I never told you
Because I didn’t take the time

The words spilled out
Inside my head
Drowning out the rest

Those words I spoke
But didn’t speak
Haunt me to this day

There are many things
I should have said
But couldn’t…

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Tunnel Vision

There are times in my life when things get especially hard, when the weight of the world crushes down on my shoulders, back and chest. When it gets hard to swallow and the tears threaten to break forth. When the world outside is cold and unforgiving. Now, feels like one of those times. It’s a time when I can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. When the tunnel is just a tunnel and the tunnel is never ending.

But, I find that surrounding myself with things that bring their own light to my life, then I at least have a flashlight to guide me within the tunnel. One that shines on the dark spaces and reveals them for what they really are. Simply cracked, grey concrete.

The idea to break through with force and with rage is appealing. But it’s not the only way. I’ve found that if I keep enough battery in the flashlight, if I keep feeding it with the little things that I love, I will eventually find my way out of this tunnel and into the sunshine. To feel the wind on my face or the spray of the sea.

Because I know it’s waiting for me to reach it and to tell me that this, too, shall pass, eventually. So I’m taking the steps to get there, one at a time, flashlight in hand.

No Time At All

It’s been a while, I know.

But then again, a while is subjective, isn’t it?

The same goes for a minute.

Although it’s really just 60 seconds

Out of an infinite number of seconds

We say it when we feel like it’s been much longer.

But a minute is finite

Just like the days, months and years that pass us by

It’s just 60 seconds in 1 minute

60 minutes in an hour

24 hours in a day

7 days in an week

4 weeks in a month

12 months in a year


And yet…

The days grow longer

And the years become shorter

And the lifetime’s you had in the past

Are just a jumping off point for all the lives waiting in your future.

So, maybe it’s been a while

But maybe it’s really been no time at all.

Shattered Glass

This shattered world is composed of a million shattered hearts

Our fragility is not to be taken lightly

Our fight is to be taken seriously

Like the fissured glass

Once broken, we are hard to put back together

Though we may come out different

It is not entirely impossible

2017 Film Rankings

“Of all the movie theaters in all the towns in all the world, she walked into mine…”

Rick Blaine, played by Humphrey Bogart, spoke that line in the 1942 film, Casablanca. Or maybe he was talking about gin? I can never remember…images-1

Anyway, 2017 was quite the year for movies and I sat my butt down for a whole lot of them. So, here’s list of every movie I watched in theaters in 2017, ranked from favorite to least favorite.

**These are strictly my opinion and my opinion alone**

  1. Get Out –  Oscar Winner for “Best Original Screenplay”
  2. Wonder Woman
  3. Call Me By Your Name – Oscar Winner for “Best Adapted Screenplay”
  4. Logan – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Adapted Screenplay
  5. Thor: Ragnorak
  6. Spider-Man: Homecoming
  7. The Greatest Showman – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Original Song “This is Me”
  8. The Shape of Water – Oscar Winner for “Best Picture”
  9. War for the Planet of the Apes – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Visual Effects
  10. Atomic Blonde
  11. The LEGO Batman Movie
  12. Baby Driver –  3 Oscar Nominations, including Best Editing
  13. Lady Bird – 5 Oscar Nominations, including Best Picture, Best Director
  14. Dunkirk – 3 Oscar Wins, including Best Film Editing, Best Sound Mixing & Best Sound Editing
  15. Beauty and the Beast – 2 Oscar Nominations including Best Costume Design
  16. Guardians of the Galaxy, Vol. 2 – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Visual Effects
  17. Everything, Everything
  18. Girls Trip
  19. Kong: Skull Island – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Visual Effects
  20. The Fate of the Furious
  21. Star Wars: The Last Jedi – 4 Oscar Nominations including Best Visual Effects
  22. Kingsman: The Golden Circle
  23. Ingrid Goes West
  24. Happy Death Day
  25. Life
  26. The Boss Baby – 1 Oscar Nomination for Best Animated Feature
  27. Saban’s Power Rangers
  28. The Zookeeper’s Wife
  29. King Arthur: Legend of the Sword
  30. Baywatch
  31. Split
  32. Murder on the Orient Express
  33. Table 19
  34. The Hitman’s Bodyguard
  35. Home Again
  36. A Dog’s Purpose
  37. The Space Between Us
  38. Rough Night
  39. Unforgettable
  40. Justice League
  41. Valerian & The City of a Thousand Planets
  42. A Cure for Wellness
  43. The LEGO Ninjago Movie

Escape Into the World

Now feels like as good a time as any

To escape into the world

To explore the far reaches

That are anywhere but here

Where the required learning

Requires much unlearning

And instead, instead

Find a place that’s already been found

But has yet to be found by you

And you

And you

And you

And me